i had to lock the doors..do i need say more
thursday i had to go to court for to get my speeding ticket reduced..thursday my mother left for california with harry..thursday was the last evening i had with michael before he left for florida with his family.....my father came into town from wherever the fuck he was to accompany me to court..michael came with as well...from court my father followed me to tops where me and the bf were visiting his friend bonk and pickin up speghettio's for dinner...20 minutes on arriving home my father calls and asks if michael went home..now anybody who knows my father knows that hes the most overprotective violent father on the face of the planet...therefore keeping this in mind i said no that michael had gone home...now me and michael were watching alias and eating .thats all...without warning my father waltzes into my house and flipps out..your busted i know what you were doing..michael its time to leave....(michael leaves)..my father yells at me for however long on how im a slut and that i have no right to have him over without rents home and that i will not to do this and that and how he should slap the shit outa me for being so disrespectful blah blah blah...he then continued to call my mother and bitch at her about how shes a terrible parent and has no right to let me stay here bymyself and shes insane and im out of control blah blah blah..now forgive me for saying so but WHAT THE FUCKING FUCK.. are you kidding...my dearest father has been out of my fucking life for the last like 5 years..he lost all rights to interfer in my house and life ever sense he decided to cheat on my mother with stupid bimbett kathleen and move out..my mother has been the sole influence in my life..shes been a good parent..shes made sure ive turned out all right..and frankly the reason why i lost my virginity in the first place and lost how many yrs of my life fucking things up for myself with guys and everything is because of my father leaving...hes the reason why i have so many fucking trust issues and i lost all respect for myself in the first place...so dont you dare try to walk into my house after being gone for so long and try and tell me how to live me life...after thurs..he came by my house three times..three fucking times to check up on me...he left 4 messages bout how i need to call him and say if i need him to take care of the animals and shit...im sry what??..take care of MY animals...since when is it your responsibility to do anything for my animals..its my fucking house theyre my fucking animals and its my fucking responsibility...."i dunno what the fuck you think your doing but i came by around 3 and there was shit all over the fucking house..."...yea and i dont get outa practice till 430 and dont get home till 5..the dog took a shit on one lil area of the carpet...its my problem its my responsibility to clean it up..he has no fucking business walking into my hosue and trying to run things..its fucking ludicrious....he calls me last nite at 7 and says "your eating dinner with me tomorrow nite.." mm no im not..i dont wanna fucking talk to you dad..your crossed the line you invaded my home and privacy whenb oyu had no right to...your not doing squat with me..not now...needless to say im not gunna let him lay his hands on me again...i locked the doors and im not talking to him...he called at 1241 last nite...i was asleep..why the fuck would you bother me then/.....hes lost control and im fucking scared..hes hurt me before and if he does it again im calling the fucking cops and getting his ass put in jail.......its not been a very good weekend......i miss my mother.....and of course i miss michael...god what the fuck is wrong with this world........please..someone fucking shoot me!!!!!!!!