wrong track
Everything, i mean everything is so parallel to what it used to be. Its backwards to what i used to believe. i was against drugs and alcohol and smoking but now look at me. i do all of that. everything feels so good and so right yet i dont want to get caught even though i put myself in a position to get caught.
addict: 3 questions they always ask; when? where? how?
am i now asking myself these questions? am i an addict? i know for the most part how to get it and i know when i can have it. i cant tell if i look forward to it or not. i only like to be around ppl when i do things i hate being alone. Being alone is my worst fear. no one is there to worry over me. no one is there to make sure im safe. alone is an awful feeling.
the worst part about everything is i found someone to hang out with that loves it as much as i do. that scares me . what do i do when something goes terribly wrong. who will i turn to?
addict: 3 questions they always ask; when? where? how?
am i now asking myself these questions? am i an addict? i know for the most part how to get it and i know when i can have it. i cant tell if i look forward to it or not. i only like to be around ppl when i do things i hate being alone. Being alone is my worst fear. no one is there to worry over me. no one is there to make sure im safe. alone is an awful feeling.
the worst part about everything is i found someone to hang out with that loves it as much as i do. that scares me . what do i do when something goes terribly wrong. who will i turn to?