relief
so i finally have relief. everything is taken care of up until the 7th when i go back to school. christmas shopping has long been done, shifts at work have been covered, plans have been made to fill up pretty much everyday over break so i dont get bored and i know my grades. (i passed)
so friday im leaving again to go up to state. i get to spend the night w/ tiffany and im gonna make sure nothing happens bc if she doesnt want a relationship i will be sure she does not get one from me, or anything from me for that matter.
i talked to penny and i still have not been able to tell her i dont want to be with her. i dont know if i dont want to be with her or if im scared bc i know for a fact there will be security with her. she will treat me right and make sure im taken care of but on the other hand i like my independance but i know if i need room shell give me that too. she sounds so cute on the phone and she has the cutest voice and i just really dont know what to do. im really scared to be with her and im taking it really slow with her too.
anyways i didnt realize it was past midnight. i havent stopped shaking since this afternoon and i know im not cold. maybe when i wake up tomorrow the damn shaking will stop. justin suggested that it might be bc im gonna see tiffany but i started shaking long before that. i was driving home from my grandmas and it started. oh well it should stop soon.
anyways happy holidays to all
*hugs and kisses*
so friday im leaving again to go up to state. i get to spend the night w/ tiffany and im gonna make sure nothing happens bc if she doesnt want a relationship i will be sure she does not get one from me, or anything from me for that matter.
i talked to penny and i still have not been able to tell her i dont want to be with her. i dont know if i dont want to be with her or if im scared bc i know for a fact there will be security with her. she will treat me right and make sure im taken care of but on the other hand i like my independance but i know if i need room shell give me that too. she sounds so cute on the phone and she has the cutest voice and i just really dont know what to do. im really scared to be with her and im taking it really slow with her too.
anyways i didnt realize it was past midnight. i havent stopped shaking since this afternoon and i know im not cold. maybe when i wake up tomorrow the damn shaking will stop. justin suggested that it might be bc im gonna see tiffany but i started shaking long before that. i was driving home from my grandmas and it started. oh well it should stop soon.
anyways happy holidays to all
*hugs and kisses*