I Miss You, Paul
I went to 80s night at Elysium tonight. It’s been years. I know you loved it. I had a great time & hugged a few friends. One in particular that I met because of you.
And then they played Lie To Me. I danced. I danced for you. At times, I danced like you. And when it was over, I needed to go outside & have a moment to myself. So I went out back, where there’s sure to be few, if any, people. And I cried.
This was my second visit to Elysium since your death, & much to my surprise, only the first time I’ve cried (there).
I miss you, Paul. Until the day I die I will live with regret for the last few years. Why are we both so stubborn? You tried like hell to talk to me, but I wouldn’t budge. Because you didn’t try that hard with Sebastian. I’ll always regret the years we lost.
I hope you know. I hope you can see & feel how much we all loved you. Still love you.
I’ll never stop looking for you on the dance floor. I’ll never stop expecting you to come dance with me. I still can’t believe this is real.
And then they played Lie To Me. I danced. I danced for you. At times, I danced like you. And when it was over, I needed to go outside & have a moment to myself. So I went out back, where there’s sure to be few, if any, people. And I cried.
This was my second visit to Elysium since your death, & much to my surprise, only the first time I’ve cried (there).
I miss you, Paul. Until the day I die I will live with regret for the last few years. Why are we both so stubborn? You tried like hell to talk to me, but I wouldn’t budge. Because you didn’t try that hard with Sebastian. I’ll always regret the years we lost.
I hope you know. I hope you can see & feel how much we all loved you. Still love you.
I’ll never stop looking for you on the dance floor. I’ll never stop expecting you to come dance with me. I still can’t believe this is real.