I'll take a chocolate truffle with a side of arsenic please
So I'm bored out of my mind @ work, trying my hardest not to claw my eyes out.
It was a long night last night. Brennan seems to think he is inadequate and calls himself an "inexperienced kid" all the time. It upsets me that he thinks he's not good enough. I try my hardest to convince him otherwise, but it doesn't seem to work. Last night, in the middle of attempting to convince him that he is more than I could hope for, he goes into a panic attack. I had no clue what to do. Staying calm, I sat beside him trying to calm him down and make him better. He said he wasn't stressed out because of us. I think he was lying. I found out about a week ago he's only slept with one other person. I am almost 100% sure that he feels inadequate because of my sexual history. He doesn't know how many guys I've slept with, nor do I feel the need to tell him (I can still count on two hands!). However, he does know that I've had more experiences than he. But I just wish I knew what to do to make him see that I prefer him. He's a wonderful lover and friend. He treats me better than anyone- ever. I feel like I can't help him up, though. And I want to be there. I want him KNOW that I am being sincere.
Tonight, it's my goal to sit down and talk with him about the situation. I care about him so much. I just hope that he will be open to my words and take them to heart.
Here's hoping......
It was a long night last night. Brennan seems to think he is inadequate and calls himself an "inexperienced kid" all the time. It upsets me that he thinks he's not good enough. I try my hardest to convince him otherwise, but it doesn't seem to work. Last night, in the middle of attempting to convince him that he is more than I could hope for, he goes into a panic attack. I had no clue what to do. Staying calm, I sat beside him trying to calm him down and make him better. He said he wasn't stressed out because of us. I think he was lying. I found out about a week ago he's only slept with one other person. I am almost 100% sure that he feels inadequate because of my sexual history. He doesn't know how many guys I've slept with, nor do I feel the need to tell him (I can still count on two hands!). However, he does know that I've had more experiences than he. But I just wish I knew what to do to make him see that I prefer him. He's a wonderful lover and friend. He treats me better than anyone- ever. I feel like I can't help him up, though. And I want to be there. I want him KNOW that I am being sincere.
Tonight, it's my goal to sit down and talk with him about the situation. I care about him so much. I just hope that he will be open to my words and take them to heart.
Here's hoping......