OHH future, I wish i embraced you.
Why cant everything just be so simple? I shake my head knownig that life will will never be so...but i certainly do wish differently.
The closer my future comes the more fear that builds up inside me...though i still have a year to decide choices that may effect my entire life (speaking vaguely ofcourse lol), i still feel as if its right around the corner. Maybe Im right? Seriously, Im utterly scared of everything that may come, could come, should come, and might come. Its ridiculous, im even thinking about babies and commitment, and I literally shit myself. Im not ready, I feel so unprepared for all this. I dont want to decide or choose, I want to sit in class and enjoy being at ease...... for I know in a few months Im on my own.
Though being independent is great, and Im fully ready to be just that, I know that so much more comes along with being on your own and thats just the thing that truly gives me goosebumps. Could I not be so stresssed....jesus i hate this. I HATE THIS!!
Goddamn you future. Your coming way to soon and WAY too fast.
I love my pace, and though its slow I fear the future will disrupt my walk and slowly turn into a sprint....for my decision is far from being decided.
The closer my future comes the more fear that builds up inside me...though i still have a year to decide choices that may effect my entire life (speaking vaguely ofcourse lol), i still feel as if its right around the corner. Maybe Im right? Seriously, Im utterly scared of everything that may come, could come, should come, and might come. Its ridiculous, im even thinking about babies and commitment, and I literally shit myself. Im not ready, I feel so unprepared for all this. I dont want to decide or choose, I want to sit in class and enjoy being at ease...... for I know in a few months Im on my own.
Though being independent is great, and Im fully ready to be just that, I know that so much more comes along with being on your own and thats just the thing that truly gives me goosebumps. Could I not be so stresssed....jesus i hate this. I HATE THIS!!
Goddamn you future. Your coming way to soon and WAY too fast.
I love my pace, and though its slow I fear the future will disrupt my walk and slowly turn into a sprint....for my decision is far from being decided.