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a long time ago, everything was simple. u never got hurt, u didnt cry, u just felt good about urself and ur life. all ur friends were around and ready to go places anytime of the day. u waited for the ice cream truck to come down ur street. u could walk somewhere where there was quietness and solitude, but had a friendly face to go with u. relationships were just hugging and kissing without the lack of confidence and trust. everything was bright, and looked happy from a far distance. u couldnt wait to turn 21 so u could go out anywhere with ur friends, cuz u knew there would be no limits.
but time goes by and all the clouds seem to creep in. u grow up only to remember the simpler times. u stare at that cieling like u have for the last 6 years. and even though nothing has changed about it, u always feel differently about it. u throw things at ur walls because now it hurts when people judge u. u hit ur pillow because for some reason, u cant seem to do the right things. u grab the dull blade that u've been using for years because the pain that lives inside of u just wont go away. everything becomes upside down because that one person just cant seem to understand u. that person has ur heart, but they dont get the way u feel. they aren't as happy as u r when u get to see them. it doesnt matter to them if they see u one day or the next day, just as long as ur there when they need u. u would drive and drive just to spend 3 hours with them. u would do anything to see them. u would try to stay up and talk to them if they had a problem. u would make time to be with them...u would want to be with them every chance u got. u wouldn't leave them crying in the car. but reality is cruel, and u make the same mistakes over and over.
i wish he treated me like i treat him.
i wish he would do anything to be with me. i wish he had that NEED to see me. i wish i hadn't ruined our relationship. i wish i could stop making the same mistakes. sometimes he makes me wonder if he would be happier without me in his life.
but time goes by and all the clouds seem to creep in. u grow up only to remember the simpler times. u stare at that cieling like u have for the last 6 years. and even though nothing has changed about it, u always feel differently about it. u throw things at ur walls because now it hurts when people judge u. u hit ur pillow because for some reason, u cant seem to do the right things. u grab the dull blade that u've been using for years because the pain that lives inside of u just wont go away. everything becomes upside down because that one person just cant seem to understand u. that person has ur heart, but they dont get the way u feel. they aren't as happy as u r when u get to see them. it doesnt matter to them if they see u one day or the next day, just as long as ur there when they need u. u would drive and drive just to spend 3 hours with them. u would do anything to see them. u would try to stay up and talk to them if they had a problem. u would make time to be with them...u would want to be with them every chance u got. u wouldn't leave them crying in the car. but reality is cruel, and u make the same mistakes over and over.
i wish he treated me like i treat him.
i wish he would do anything to be with me. i wish he had that NEED to see me. i wish i hadn't ruined our relationship. i wish i could stop making the same mistakes. sometimes he makes me wonder if he would be happier without me in his life.