*The understanding isn't there*
Do daddy's always do this?
Isabelle told me that her daddy doesn't do it to her.
I wonder why my daddy does it to me.
He says he does it because he loves me.
I just wish he didn't have to do it right now, it still hurts from yesterday.
I don't think it should be happening, but I'm too scared to move.
What will happen if he finds out I'm not really asleep?
I don't want it to end up like last time, my throat hurt for two days straight.
I can't cry, because then he'll know that I'm awake.
All I can do is lay here and pretend I'm asleep.
Maybe this time it won't be like last time.
Maybe this time he'll just tuck me in and say goodnight.
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many people cannot fathom the thought of a child being broken and ruined at such an early age. the innocence of a child is supposed to b sacred and cherished, not taken advantaged of. the pain that a child can learn to love and carry with them through their life is pretty incredible if you just sit back and think about it. when they grow up and realize that they are different, but not because it was by choice, or even that they had any control at all over any of it...one might feel betrayed. many cant understand what us the ruined ones have gone through; what we've seen, what we've felt and learned to hate.
but hopefully that one person will come along. the one who can heal us and bandage the wounds inflicted from a devil disguised as a father.
hopefully one day.
Isabelle told me that her daddy doesn't do it to her.
I wonder why my daddy does it to me.
He says he does it because he loves me.
I just wish he didn't have to do it right now, it still hurts from yesterday.
I don't think it should be happening, but I'm too scared to move.
What will happen if he finds out I'm not really asleep?
I don't want it to end up like last time, my throat hurt for two days straight.
I can't cry, because then he'll know that I'm awake.
All I can do is lay here and pretend I'm asleep.
Maybe this time it won't be like last time.
Maybe this time he'll just tuck me in and say goodnight.
*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*
many people cannot fathom the thought of a child being broken and ruined at such an early age. the innocence of a child is supposed to b sacred and cherished, not taken advantaged of. the pain that a child can learn to love and carry with them through their life is pretty incredible if you just sit back and think about it. when they grow up and realize that they are different, but not because it was by choice, or even that they had any control at all over any of it...one might feel betrayed. many cant understand what us the ruined ones have gone through; what we've seen, what we've felt and learned to hate.
but hopefully that one person will come along. the one who can heal us and bandage the wounds inflicted from a devil disguised as a father.
hopefully one day.