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[pmsmosh]

sometimes its hard to actually
know and accept that im like this
that anyone could be like this
that we can all play around
and mess up others' expectations
of us
its like whywhywhy
and youll never know the answer
nobody will ever know
and sometimes its hard to pinpoint
the origin of all this mess
like where it came from
why its here
and why its raining on you only
i cant see sometimes because of this
and i only thought of one person
and thats it
and i can say its me because i only
thought to myself
score
and i cant believe i actually did it again
to summerize feelings
is to shorten out every part of a long history
of hate wants and denial
and i just always wanted her to know
that i loved her and it was a fuckedup kinda love
and that i dont even know
why we got into it.
and why she stuck it through
and my chances were ripped apart by myself
nobody even had to help commit the crime

sometimes kids, it just doesnt seem real at all
and then you have to look at your arms and
say yeah its very real bitch
and everyone saw it

what is love
just fucking tears or what
a mess of puddles
a mess of words
and silence for the other parts
lol. boyyy