May 30, 2006 13:30
I think I've worked for a total of 30 minutes today. All my students are being well behaved, and are doing fine directing their own learning. It's great* but it leaves me with a feeling of worthlessness. I feel like a glorified babysitter that has way too much education to be doing what I am. I feel like, 90% of the time, my vast amount of experience and talents are going to waste. The curriculum and program has its merits, and is right for a certain array of students. But it is not ideal. It is not true teaching. I do not have a class; I have a collection of individual students.
It is great experience. I am working with an extremely at-risk group of kids, and for quite a few of them, this is their last shot at graduating high school, and I am the one that will help determine the possibility of success there * I guess that's what teaching is: helping students succeed.
What motivates someone to become a teacher? Passion is the easiest answer; but as true as that may be, it sounds like a copout. Everybody can make claim that they go into their trade out of passion. Well, maybe that is actually a support for the passion justification. I think it would go a step beyond that thought. I think it has a lot to do with wanting to see others passionate about their lives, and them wanting to play their part in helping that process along.