I Can't Sleep... I Can't Think....
So this has been my MO when it gets like this. I toss and turn all night running through scenarios in my head. At times I wake and feel as if I have been drowning myself with tears. No, they're not flowing like Niagra, but the remnance of them streak my face. I hate this. I hate not knowing. Not knowing what to could be done. Not know what exactly I have done. This state of limbo is the worst.
And I don't think that I have any control over the situation. It's those that surround me that don't accept. That turn the cold shoulder. I can confront each and every situation that arises, and I am more than willing to, but is that really the issue? By confronting each and every individual who has the air of mality or disrespect would be taxing. And not saying that they even feel that way, but because it was received that way, that is what matters.
I don't understand. They don't understand. Am I to live the rest of my life like this?
And I don't think that I have any control over the situation. It's those that surround me that don't accept. That turn the cold shoulder. I can confront each and every situation that arises, and I am more than willing to, but is that really the issue? By confronting each and every individual who has the air of mality or disrespect would be taxing. And not saying that they even feel that way, but because it was received that way, that is what matters.
I don't understand. They don't understand. Am I to live the rest of my life like this?