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well, I was really tired today in school. I came home, and was quite chipper. I got to go to TKD and decorate ordimanents and take a pretty fun class. Yeah, it was pretty great...
But yeah, Again, I'm in a horribly sour mood now because of.. guess who. The one my last post like this was about! Yes, that right. I hate this. hate. hate. HATE! I never want to feel like this again! but of course, I will, since I always go right back to how I was. But you know, like I say ever time, Not this time!
But this time, I think I mean it. Crushin' on people is truly a waist of time. Sure, its fun for a while, but body language tells all. I know he doesn't talk to talk to me. He doesn't even care if I'm there. SCREW THAT! I'm moving on! yes, thats right. Officially, I DON'T LIKE ANYONE!! well, I love my friends, but I'm no longer crushin' on anyone. Thats right, All crushes are off! No more! none! EVER AGAIN! well, thats not true. At least not until I... I don't know. I'm messed up.
oh wait, no. I'm not messed up, I'm just not sensable. In fact, I have food sitting in the microwave right now that I just havnt gotten. And now that I've typed this, I am to disgused with myself to even eat it. I think I NEED TO THROW UP NO! AAAARRRRGGGG!!
wow, I've let off some steam, havn't I? tahts funny... BECAUSE I'M STILL REALLY PISSED OFF!!! AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA RRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR RRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGGGGGG GGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG!!!!!!!!!!!!!! !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I guess I'm not ment for any of the mushy stuff. I guess my purpose in life is to beat the shit out of people at TKD.. and beat the shit out of people at soccer. This is good right now, because thats exactly what I want to do, RIGHT NOW.
No more, will I EVER make myself feel like this. It's just no good for me. I need to focus on things that aren't a waist of time. Besides, dating's over rated, right? all that togetherness. Being best friends. Having someone to lean on when you are at your lowest moment. Some one that can make you laugh at something that if anyone else said it, it wouldnt be funny. Some one that will love you even when you look like crap after taking a really hard TKD class and are all sweaty and smelly.
If I can't find someone like that, then there's no one for me.
But yeah, Again, I'm in a horribly sour mood now because of.. guess who. The one my last post like this was about! Yes, that right. I hate this. hate. hate. HATE! I never want to feel like this again! but of course, I will, since I always go right back to how I was. But you know, like I say ever time, Not this time!
But this time, I think I mean it. Crushin' on people is truly a waist of time. Sure, its fun for a while, but body language tells all. I know he doesn't talk to talk to me. He doesn't even care if I'm there. SCREW THAT! I'm moving on! yes, thats right. Officially, I DON'T LIKE ANYONE!! well, I love my friends, but I'm no longer crushin' on anyone. Thats right, All crushes are off! No more! none! EVER AGAIN! well, thats not true. At least not until I... I don't know. I'm messed up.
oh wait, no. I'm not messed up, I'm just not sensable. In fact, I have food sitting in the microwave right now that I just havnt gotten. And now that I've typed this, I am to disgused with myself to even eat it. I think I NEED TO THROW UP NO! AAAARRRRGGGG!!
wow, I've let off some steam, havn't I? tahts funny... BECAUSE I'M STILL REALLY PISSED OFF!!! AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA RRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR RRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGGGGGG GGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG!!!!!!!!!!!!!! !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I guess I'm not ment for any of the mushy stuff. I guess my purpose in life is to beat the shit out of people at TKD.. and beat the shit out of people at soccer. This is good right now, because thats exactly what I want to do, RIGHT NOW.
No more, will I EVER make myself feel like this. It's just no good for me. I need to focus on things that aren't a waist of time. Besides, dating's over rated, right? all that togetherness. Being best friends. Having someone to lean on when you are at your lowest moment. Some one that can make you laugh at something that if anyone else said it, it wouldnt be funny. Some one that will love you even when you look like crap after taking a really hard TKD class and are all sweaty and smelly.
If I can't find someone like that, then there's no one for me.