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i feel sad when i shouldn't feel sad. most of the other times i don't really feel anything-- it's nothing to worry about, i guess. but it scares me a lot more than it should.
i've stopped picking up the phone. it rings presistently everyday and i think about who it could be and how that doesn't even matter. i always want to say something that means something to you but i can't do that. i've probably said it all already and it probably was a lie. or you probably think i was lying because i meant it then and don't mean it now.
i think i am going to reread catcher in the rye for the millionth time. for some reason it makes me feel warm after a while instead of sad. warm is a better feeling.
i've stopped picking up the phone. it rings presistently everyday and i think about who it could be and how that doesn't even matter. i always want to say something that means something to you but i can't do that. i've probably said it all already and it probably was a lie. or you probably think i was lying because i meant it then and don't mean it now.
i think i am going to reread catcher in the rye for the millionth time. for some reason it makes me feel warm after a while instead of sad. warm is a better feeling.