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[plurali]

Chad Reconstruction Project.
Phase one completed: I have new glasses.
And they make me look presentable. they aren't black rimmed and shit.

Comments

[skeletaltime]

Aww. I liked the emo glasses. I'm sorry to hear that things are going shitty...

[plurali]

yeah, shitty enough to deserve a kick in the balls.

[skeletaltime]

I am sorry that things are going shitty. I am sorry you feel so sorry for yourself. Because I do care about you. But you need some fucking tough love. And some self love. No ones going to love you until you love yourself. And youre not going to love yourself until you take care of yourself. And you certainly arent doing that.

[plurali]

got two things to worry about:
school
and getting out of dad's place.

i'm allowed to feel shitty.
i'm allowed to feel sorry for myself.
i'm allowed to feel wronged when people talk shit about me.
i'm allowed to feel bad when i get stood up or cancelled on.
i'm allowed to feel not guilty about retreating to my dad's place to redevelop a sense of self and get my shit together.
everyone in this family has tapped this net of support but me. it's my turn. and it doesn't come without a price.

and no, I'm not indebted to babysitting my sister's kids. She makes $55/day as a sub. It's called being a good brother.

[skeletaltime]

Alright, then worry about it. Thats good, that means you want more than where youre at

[plurali]

shit talking's come from many sides lately. last night I finally got fed up and dished some out, and then, for some reason, I was the ass. I had to apologise

[skeletaltime]

I'm sorry you're lonely. You know my schedule. Call me. I'm bad at calling people. Assuming I have gas money, I'll do what I can. I am out on your side of town on weekends, and the only reason I dont call you is after the weekend outing with Michael, I'm usually just ready to go home to lay around.

Whatever the case on the disrespect, there was swooning nonetheless.

I understand you feeling guilty about your sister's situation, and if you feel like there's really nothing you can do during the day to further yourself toward getting out of there, then that's very sweet of you.

I hope the dorm/college thing goes well. I think you'd be less depressed if you werent where you are.

[plurali]

I can use the car on occasion. and it wasn't like a swipe at you about the whole lonliness thing

[skeletaltime]

I can't imagine being stuck in Tomball. I would go insane. Being stuck in Clear Lake was bad enough, and there is a decent amount of young people living there.

[plurali]

Never said my life was *hard*
I've said it's rough sometimes.
I don't go around "pulling rank" that my life is shitty.

I bash my dad's past attitudes. I bash how he raised me and how it hurt alot. If you listen to everything I've said (not just the shit you want to hear to make points), I'm happy with his growth as a person and I'm glad he's made steps to repair the damage he himself caused.

as for being cheered up, I wasn't doing so bad until you had to stick your nose up in here. now I'm just a little angry. but I've got an A in anthro so far, so that's pretty awesome.

[plurali]

Just because I'm done talking to you in AIM - not to mention hoping to be done here - doesn't mean I'm not chilled or unhappy.