"i'm on the outside and i'm looking in"
i'm going to calgary tommorow. i wonder if i'll have any fun...
atleast i'll get to spend time with my sister. this whole summer has been her working in the day time, me working in the night time, either one having too much of a life to be able to stand still and just be bestfriends. then again same can be said about my non-related bestfriend. why do i feel like part of my life is taking off yet the other part is falling apart? kind of like my past is falling behind and my present is grabbing at my future whether i like it or not.
if i don't stop and think for a moment, i'm going to end up alone.
these people aren't forever.
you aren't forever. she isn't forever. they aren't forever.
but what i had...
maybe that's something to love and hold on to. comfort and excitement don't go hand in hand.
i feel sad and i blame it on the usual face. it's just easier that way.
atleast i'll get to spend time with my sister. this whole summer has been her working in the day time, me working in the night time, either one having too much of a life to be able to stand still and just be bestfriends. then again same can be said about my non-related bestfriend. why do i feel like part of my life is taking off yet the other part is falling apart? kind of like my past is falling behind and my present is grabbing at my future whether i like it or not.
if i don't stop and think for a moment, i'm going to end up alone.
these people aren't forever.
you aren't forever. she isn't forever. they aren't forever.
but what i had...
maybe that's something to love and hold on to. comfort and excitement don't go hand in hand.
i feel sad and i blame it on the usual face. it's just easier that way.