Feed Me?
I met a young man recently, and being a very open-minded sort of person, when we started getting closer, and being intimate, I wanted to know what turned him on so I could rock his world even harder. ;) I personally am a submissive kind of girl, I love a strong man (or woman, really) who can pick me up and who will tie me down as well.
He was so shy and embaressed to tell me his kink, but I dragged it out of him.
He likes big, large, lovely ladies. And the thought of feeding them and watching their bodies plump up is an intense turn on to him.
I had no problem at all when he told me, and he started showing me his collection of photographs and videos of large women in various states of undress. It was so sweet how shy he was about his preference. He leans towards the ssbbw's, women who are over 300, 400 pounds. He told me that he loves looking at their curves. He has an extreme fetish for large bellies that hang down, big upper arms, and wide, round asses.
Herein lies the root of my issue.
We are both pretty young, i'm about to turn 24 and he's 21. He has had big girlfriends before, all of them were big. And here I am... 5'4 and 165. I'm not a stick, but I'm nowhere near his preference. I asked if that was going to be a problem, and he said that it was just a kink and preference, that his lady doesn't need to be big like that for him to love her.
I believe him, but at the same time I don't. I know he likes me and my modest curves and rolls. We connect mentally and politically. The sex is incredible. But I have in the back of my head, this worry that his eye will wander to other women who are bigger than me, that if I am not a big woman, he won't be satisfied with my body.
I used to be big. In highschool I was 5'2 and 225 pounds. I showed him pictures, and he was blown away and kept telling me how gorgeous I was like that. But I went vegan my senior year, and I dropped all the weight from the diet change. I wasn't trying to lose weight, in fact I liked my fat body and all my curves and my voluptuousness. I had men hit on me and found me attractive; and some ladies as well ;) But that's just what happened, I changed my diet and all the weight melted off without any effort.
Now I have had several years to even out, and I'm usually comfortable at 140 and I dont have to watch my diet to keep that weight. But I'm 165 today, and I know I put the weight on because I have been eating more and more because I know he's watching, and getting turned on.
The other night was the first time he really showed me what he liked. And this is really where my questions will come from.
We basically went to bed with a piece of cake, which he fed to me very sensually. I was so turned on by the time he had fed me every bite, we had incredible, sweaty, passionate sex.
I don't know why I find this so sexy, but I don't care, I don't need a reason. I want to explore it, I want to experience it. But I am worried about the weight issue. I have a hard time losing weight and if I don't like my body as larger, I'm worried I won't be able to get back down to the size I am now.
Is there anything anyone can tell me, advise me?
He was so shy and embaressed to tell me his kink, but I dragged it out of him.
He likes big, large, lovely ladies. And the thought of feeding them and watching their bodies plump up is an intense turn on to him.
I had no problem at all when he told me, and he started showing me his collection of photographs and videos of large women in various states of undress. It was so sweet how shy he was about his preference. He leans towards the ssbbw's, women who are over 300, 400 pounds. He told me that he loves looking at their curves. He has an extreme fetish for large bellies that hang down, big upper arms, and wide, round asses.
Herein lies the root of my issue.
We are both pretty young, i'm about to turn 24 and he's 21. He has had big girlfriends before, all of them were big. And here I am... 5'4 and 165. I'm not a stick, but I'm nowhere near his preference. I asked if that was going to be a problem, and he said that it was just a kink and preference, that his lady doesn't need to be big like that for him to love her.
I believe him, but at the same time I don't. I know he likes me and my modest curves and rolls. We connect mentally and politically. The sex is incredible. But I have in the back of my head, this worry that his eye will wander to other women who are bigger than me, that if I am not a big woman, he won't be satisfied with my body.
I used to be big. In highschool I was 5'2 and 225 pounds. I showed him pictures, and he was blown away and kept telling me how gorgeous I was like that. But I went vegan my senior year, and I dropped all the weight from the diet change. I wasn't trying to lose weight, in fact I liked my fat body and all my curves and my voluptuousness. I had men hit on me and found me attractive; and some ladies as well ;) But that's just what happened, I changed my diet and all the weight melted off without any effort.
Now I have had several years to even out, and I'm usually comfortable at 140 and I dont have to watch my diet to keep that weight. But I'm 165 today, and I know I put the weight on because I have been eating more and more because I know he's watching, and getting turned on.
The other night was the first time he really showed me what he liked. And this is really where my questions will come from.
We basically went to bed with a piece of cake, which he fed to me very sensually. I was so turned on by the time he had fed me every bite, we had incredible, sweaty, passionate sex.
I don't know why I find this so sexy, but I don't care, I don't need a reason. I want to explore it, I want to experience it. But I am worried about the weight issue. I have a hard time losing weight and if I don't like my body as larger, I'm worried I won't be able to get back down to the size I am now.
Is there anything anyone can tell me, advise me?