40 weeks....
i feel so impatient. so anxious now.
i am poised for pain and yet it only teases when my legs go out from beneath me or i fall to my knees cause it feels like she's got a leg nerve in each little fist...
sometimes i feel her pushing downward like she could just push her own way out, but things have to happen first.
the signs can mean everything or they mean nothing at all.
it seems this is the weather...all stargazing and chicken bones.
but i will know it because it will come on like a train.
it's just that there's no schedule posted and time slows when you're waiting on a life.
i am poised for pain and yet it only teases when my legs go out from beneath me or i fall to my knees cause it feels like she's got a leg nerve in each little fist...
sometimes i feel her pushing downward like she could just push her own way out, but things have to happen first.
the signs can mean everything or they mean nothing at all.
it seems this is the weather...all stargazing and chicken bones.
but i will know it because it will come on like a train.
it's just that there's no schedule posted and time slows when you're waiting on a life.