Where does the time go?
So another week has flown by pretty quickly, yet again and I 'm not sure where my time goes! Work is work and not getting any better...still have an arse for a boss...but nothing new there! It seems that Spring has Sprung and it was great to get out and about today in the sun and slight heat!! LOL So the other story of the week has to be about Mark Owen...who'd have thought that happy, smiley, not a care in the world Mark Owen would have been like that? Not me, that's for sure...never saw that coming...the others...yep could have seen that...but not him. So to part two of my story:
One Night Stand (Part Two) / still PG at the moment
“Please don’t say anything” Howard whispered, biting his bottom lip hard as tears sprung to his eyes. He’d thought Jason had felt the same, that’s why he’d taken that final step, that’s why he’d risked everything: his family, his girlfriend, the band…he’d risked it all for Jason. Howard had finally had the guts to tell Jason how he’d felt as they’d made love and Howard had thought that even though Jason hadn’t said the words ‘I love you’ back, the way he’d touched and kissed Howard he’d thought the feeling was mutual.
“Well I’ll see you later Doug” Jason said as he stood awkwardly at the bottom of the bed, shifting his weight from foot to foot. Howard looked up and managed a weak smile and nod before the bedroom door opened and shut and Howard heard the front door slam.
He cried for the rest of the morning and didn’t get out of bed.
Jason finally called round a week later after a barrage of phone calls and text messages. Howard had felt a bit like a stalker in the end, but he’d had to do it, he just couldn’t leave it no matter what the outcome. They stood in Howard’s kitchen staring into cups of tea, neither of the speaking.
“Listen” started Jason after the silence became unbearable, “about the other night” he paused and looked at Howard, “I think we both had way too much to drink and it really shouldn’t have happened”.
Howard looked up at him “but I love you!” he finally whispered, “I thought you felt the same, which is why what happened happened…I…I…well I just thought”.
“I don’t love you Doug…well not like that” replied Jason putting his cup down on the work surface, “you’re a great guy and I love you as a mate…but…well Doug…you’re not really my type” Jason said as Howard looked on, reeling inside, wanting to scream.
“You used me?” Howard gasped, “you just used me…knowing what I was risking? You can do that to me?” Howard sobbed, “after everything we’ve been through? I…I can’t believe you’d do that to me.” Howard slammed down his mug, shaking uncontrollably at the thought of how he’d been used, of what he could lose. Everything was spiralling out of control and he didn’t know what to do anymore.
“I’m sorry Doug…its not you its me…but I’m not into relationships…I’m a one night stand kind of guy…you know I love sex… and well…I needed the sex last night….you were very, very willing…and you said you wanted to have sex too…it was wasn’t until we well into you mention the ‘L’ word…but I never really gave a second thought to be honest…and well…that’s that really.”
Howard started to sob more and Jason patted him lightly on the shoulder. “Get out!” Howard managed to say, “Just get out!” Howard cried for the rest of the day. He sat on the kitchen floor and just cried his heart out.
Part Three to follow shortly...not sure how many chapters at the moment...guess it will be until I stop writing...promise won't leave it so long next time! xx
One Night Stand (Part Two) / still PG at the moment
“Please don’t say anything” Howard whispered, biting his bottom lip hard as tears sprung to his eyes. He’d thought Jason had felt the same, that’s why he’d taken that final step, that’s why he’d risked everything: his family, his girlfriend, the band…he’d risked it all for Jason. Howard had finally had the guts to tell Jason how he’d felt as they’d made love and Howard had thought that even though Jason hadn’t said the words ‘I love you’ back, the way he’d touched and kissed Howard he’d thought the feeling was mutual.
“Well I’ll see you later Doug” Jason said as he stood awkwardly at the bottom of the bed, shifting his weight from foot to foot. Howard looked up and managed a weak smile and nod before the bedroom door opened and shut and Howard heard the front door slam.
He cried for the rest of the morning and didn’t get out of bed.
Jason finally called round a week later after a barrage of phone calls and text messages. Howard had felt a bit like a stalker in the end, but he’d had to do it, he just couldn’t leave it no matter what the outcome. They stood in Howard’s kitchen staring into cups of tea, neither of the speaking.
“Listen” started Jason after the silence became unbearable, “about the other night” he paused and looked at Howard, “I think we both had way too much to drink and it really shouldn’t have happened”.
Howard looked up at him “but I love you!” he finally whispered, “I thought you felt the same, which is why what happened happened…I…I…well I just thought”.
“I don’t love you Doug…well not like that” replied Jason putting his cup down on the work surface, “you’re a great guy and I love you as a mate…but…well Doug…you’re not really my type” Jason said as Howard looked on, reeling inside, wanting to scream.
“You used me?” Howard gasped, “you just used me…knowing what I was risking? You can do that to me?” Howard sobbed, “after everything we’ve been through? I…I can’t believe you’d do that to me.” Howard slammed down his mug, shaking uncontrollably at the thought of how he’d been used, of what he could lose. Everything was spiralling out of control and he didn’t know what to do anymore.
“I’m sorry Doug…its not you its me…but I’m not into relationships…I’m a one night stand kind of guy…you know I love sex… and well…I needed the sex last night….you were very, very willing…and you said you wanted to have sex too…it was wasn’t until we well into you mention the ‘L’ word…but I never really gave a second thought to be honest…and well…that’s that really.”
Howard started to sob more and Jason patted him lightly on the shoulder. “Get out!” Howard managed to say, “Just get out!” Howard cried for the rest of the day. He sat on the kitchen floor and just cried his heart out.
Part Three to follow shortly...not sure how many chapters at the moment...guess it will be until I stop writing...promise won't leave it so long next time! xx