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I'm honestly a little concerned about possibly having a psychotic break at some point in the next five years.
My ~inner turmoil~ or whatever has been so rocky in the last year, and in the last six months it's probably been the worst it's been in a long time, and really, there are just ... my head isn't right.
I also feel like people don't take me seriously when I tell them this (doctors included) because I'm a chronic hypochondriac.
I couldn't sleep again last night so at 5am I recorded myself talking about all of this crap but the video is too big to upload anywhere and now I has a sad about it. I might try to trim it or cut it into two, I don't know, but then it's like no one is going to watch it or care anyway. But it made me feel a little bit better to make it.
I really need to go back to therapy or something but I can't afford it right now and that sucks. Video venting is kind of the only thing I can do right now.
My ~inner turmoil~ or whatever has been so rocky in the last year, and in the last six months it's probably been the worst it's been in a long time, and really, there are just ... my head isn't right.
I also feel like people don't take me seriously when I tell them this (doctors included) because I'm a chronic hypochondriac.
I couldn't sleep again last night so at 5am I recorded myself talking about all of this crap but the video is too big to upload anywhere and now I has a sad about it. I might try to trim it or cut it into two, I don't know, but then it's like no one is going to watch it or care anyway. But it made me feel a little bit better to make it.
I really need to go back to therapy or something but I can't afford it right now and that sucks. Video venting is kind of the only thing I can do right now.