Limbo
I feel like life is in limbo right now. That I'm busy, but I'm not. That I'm happy, but I'm not. That I'm worried, but I'm not. It's a very odd, indecisive feeling, and I don't really know what to do with it other that to wait for it to pass to move onto bigger and better things.
At the moment, my life is consumed with:
>Preparing for my salsa performance with Jeff. The two of us are dancing for SDA's "Cabaret Night" to raise money for the new performing arts center. I'm really pleased with how it is coming along so far, and the little that we have prepared already, with all it's flips, dips, drops, and lifts, really emphasizes Jeff's strength and my flexibility. I'm just concerned because we have a long way to go and very little time to do it. With any luck, we'll finish our choreography this weekend.
>Worrying about my cousin and her baby. The discovery of low amniotic fluid has lead to an early C-section in the coming day or two.
>Worrying about my friend who, at age 19, is engaged to a guy she has been dating for 3 months.
>Struggling to find time to do this massive journalism piece about why state tests are ineffective and not have the admin hate me to the extreme.
>Really missing some of my best friends who are away at college right now. Just being around them helps bring me back to who I am and who I want to be.
>Stressing over end of the semester grades.
>Looking forward to this weekend and all of its fun lil plans.
>Trying to figure out what the heck I am going to do with myself next semester! Which classes to drop, which classes to add, which shows to do or not do, which dance classes to add or not add, finding a job, trying desperately to find motivation to actually work in school again, the list goes on...
>Trying to keep up with my sister while she saves the world. This includes making plans for this summer, in hopes that I'll see her once, even if she is ditching my graduation.
>Deciding: to go to Coachella, or not to go to Coachella?
>Anticipating a lovely lil district meeting with lawyers.
>Formal!
>Dealing with my weight and trying to gain some back, and trying very hard not to push my knee too much with my latest dance endeavors. My body is ridiculously whimpy. With my knee getting all stiff with the rain, I might as well be 17 going on 80. I mean, if one of my body parts has to react to the weather, why can't I pull a Mean Girls and have my breasts predict rain instead???
>Trying to figure out what truly makes me happy as a means of figuring out what the heck I am going to do with my life!
At the moment, my life is consumed with:
>Preparing for my salsa performance with Jeff. The two of us are dancing for SDA's "Cabaret Night" to raise money for the new performing arts center. I'm really pleased with how it is coming along so far, and the little that we have prepared already, with all it's flips, dips, drops, and lifts, really emphasizes Jeff's strength and my flexibility. I'm just concerned because we have a long way to go and very little time to do it. With any luck, we'll finish our choreography this weekend.
>Worrying about my cousin and her baby. The discovery of low amniotic fluid has lead to an early C-section in the coming day or two.
>Worrying about my friend who, at age 19, is engaged to a guy she has been dating for 3 months.
>Struggling to find time to do this massive journalism piece about why state tests are ineffective and not have the admin hate me to the extreme.
>Really missing some of my best friends who are away at college right now. Just being around them helps bring me back to who I am and who I want to be.
>Stressing over end of the semester grades.
>Looking forward to this weekend and all of its fun lil plans.
>Trying to figure out what the heck I am going to do with myself next semester! Which classes to drop, which classes to add, which shows to do or not do, which dance classes to add or not add, finding a job, trying desperately to find motivation to actually work in school again, the list goes on...
>Trying to keep up with my sister while she saves the world. This includes making plans for this summer, in hopes that I'll see her once, even if she is ditching my graduation.
>Deciding: to go to Coachella, or not to go to Coachella?
>Anticipating a lovely lil district meeting with lawyers.
>Formal!
>Dealing with my weight and trying to gain some back, and trying very hard not to push my knee too much with my latest dance endeavors. My body is ridiculously whimpy. With my knee getting all stiff with the rain, I might as well be 17 going on 80. I mean, if one of my body parts has to react to the weather, why can't I pull a Mean Girls and have my breasts predict rain instead???
>Trying to figure out what truly makes me happy as a means of figuring out what the heck I am going to do with my life!