Under Pressure....dun dun dun ba-da dun dun.....
Life couldn't get any more insane!!! Not only are school and college and parents and the holidays and the usual stuff stressing me out, but on top of it i feel, well, pressured!!!! abouteverythingandanything:mypersonallifemysistermyfriendsteachersandworkandandandandandandeveryonetryingtotellmewhotodatesuchthatidon'tevenknowwhoiwanttobewithanymoreandamconsideringjustscrewingthewholeideaanywayssincenothingisreallygoingtohappenandiamincrediblysleepdepprivedandiamallscarednowthatiknowthetrueextentofhowinvolvedeveryoneisinmypersonallifeandhowtheyreacttoeverylittlehintsuchasspendingoneperiodineurotalkingtooneguysuddenlymeansthateveryoneandtheirbrotherthinksweshoulddateandi'mnotsayingthatweshouldn'ti'mjustsayingsowhendoigettodecideanything?andifidoeverdecideanythingwillitbebecauseofwhatiwantorwhatwillcreatetheleastconflictorwhatwillmakethemostpeoplehappy?i'm17andithonestlyfeelslikepplarepushingmetogetonthispastthatisboundformarriageinonewayoranothersinceeveryoneissohappywiththeideaalreadyandijustdon'twanttogetstuckonthemarriagetrackbecausebelieveitornotfolksitisanactualpossibilityrightnowinthisweirdcrazyfashion!forgoodnesssakesijustwantsomeonetocurlupnexttowhilewewatchamovietoputtheirarmaroundmeandkeepitthereaminotallowedtobeanormalteenagerwhojustwantsagoodnightkissattheendoftheevening??? oh wait. i don't have time for any of that anyways. never mind. i need to sleep.