I hate dialup

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Nothing seems to go my way, ever. I'm not one to complain, but life is really terrible right now. Wednesday night was probably one of the worst nights I've had in a while. I was very close to running a knife through my chest. I can be really stupid sometimes. Although I have no control over my feelings, I really wish they weren't so screwy.

I'm still crying. I'm lonely. I don't know what I want anymore.
I just need to curl up with Shannon and have her tell me everything is going to be okay.

To top it off, my new Ipod Nano isn't working.