psimissu

[plizzle]

so last night i was re-reading my old diary entries on od and realized what a dork i am, haha. and how my relationships have changed with my friends. kevin and i got a lot closer last year when i was away at college. we would talk on the phone for hours or IM at every waking moment. and we would occasionally share flirtatious comments with each other. but things have stopped. and i think it's b/c he got a gf. and since he has a gf, why does he need me to crack sexual innuendos when he can have the real thing? and it's not like i can hate his gf cuz she's my friend too. and it's not just him that i've experienced this w/; mimi and i went through the same thing when she and josh were going out, and things just haven't been the same- that and the fact she stole my mann.....haha; and now ashley and her new bf have been hanging out all summer together. it seems like everytime my friends leave me for their gfs/bfs; but why can't it be me that leaves? why am i the one always being let go? am i that horrible of a friend that i'm so easily forgotten? or am i just unable to hold on to a relationship?
....and b/c i know no one will see this, i miss you kevin.