Ugh.
I don't have this "I can't wait to get out of this wretched place" attitude, but I think I'm just anxious for the new... everything.
I've been getting into some dark mental states at random points of the day - mainly at night, due to certain events that occured a few days ago. It's just brought up bad memories and bad thoughts about myself. Most of the time I have my mind in control, but just sometimes it gets loose and lets me feel bad.
I think once I get up to college, there will be less bad places for my mind to go, and I will be... just... better.
I don't even know why I'm so... blah - for lack of better words. I go out with friends at least once in the day and things are going well overall.
I guess it's just this one thing.
This one thing that just haunts me and eats at me, when I know I'm bigger than it. Than him. I shouldn't let this happen.
I shouldn't let this eat me up inside.
And it bothers me because I'm generally a happy go lucky person.
I hate this sadness that won't go away.
I've been getting into some dark mental states at random points of the day - mainly at night, due to certain events that occured a few days ago. It's just brought up bad memories and bad thoughts about myself. Most of the time I have my mind in control, but just sometimes it gets loose and lets me feel bad.
I think once I get up to college, there will be less bad places for my mind to go, and I will be... just... better.
I don't even know why I'm so... blah - for lack of better words. I go out with friends at least once in the day and things are going well overall.
I guess it's just this one thing.
This one thing that just haunts me and eats at me, when I know I'm bigger than it. Than him. I shouldn't let this happen.
I shouldn't let this eat me up inside.
And it bothers me because I'm generally a happy go lucky person.
I hate this sadness that won't go away.