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poor epileptics
i am moving to my dads at the end of the school year and maybe i guess my friends are selfish and terrible so i have to rant about this. just read it ok?
I am so sick of my friends saying "Well what about me? What about my feelings?" fuck your feelings!! I can't live my life to please everyone any longer. I have been doing that for three years. The only reason I came to Wisconsin in the first place is to make other people happy. I sacrificed my own mental health for the happiness of other people and i am sick of it. i have been in wisconsin making other peoples lives happier for the past three years now isn't it time for me to have some happiness? I think so. I have six months left and my friends can either be total snots and ignore me and stop hanging out with me like Courtney has been doing or they can be supportive and act like my friend like Becky has been doing. it's not like i'm going to be out of their lives forever. it's not like i'm abandoning them. every single one of them knows that they are more than welcome to visit me any time they want. and they know that i will always call them and talk to them online and of course when i come visit my mother i'll come see them. i'm not going to be gone forever. it's no big deal. so we'll see each other once every few months. BIG DEAL! I've never seen Rachel in my life and she is my best friend. Distance doesn't mean anything. Get over yourself. And it's not like I'm not going to miss them. It's not like I'm happy about leaving them. I've made some of the best friends i have ever had in my life in my three years in wisconsin. I will miss them terribly but this is something i have to do. Some of my friends have been really great about this but the others have been putting a major guilt trip on me. Well here's some news. MY DECISION ISN'T ABOUT YOU. IT'S ABOUT MY FUTURE AND MY WELL-BEING AND FUCK YOU IF YOU HATE ME FOR IT.
okay I hope this is the last time I have to say this.
i'm going christmas shopping today after school and idk what to get anyone.