Pink Pillow + Blue Blanket : )
I'm pretty upset right now. Sometimes I feel like I'm screwing myself over and the people around me. I don't actually mean to do these things I do. I cannot believe I tried to kill myself or whatever. With all the suicidal people I have been around, attempts, and actualities, what the fuck was I thinking! There was no thinking since it's not even a blurr. I remember sitting on the couch being all like, gah.. this bites and then waking up in Shawn's bed next to Caitlin. Freaked me out just a little. I do remember talking to my mother though. She was upset and said I need to talk to my friends more, find out who has permission to do what. They called 10 times that night. Woops.
So life is alright but not that great. Lots of things make me happy but Bram and Jack really upset me. I shall possibly stay away from them. I should just stick to my Morgan like I had wanted to in the first place. ...sigh... I really fucking suck sometimes. I can get over it. They will get over it. I just hope I haven't messed anything up. So this is starting to sound really whiney which is fucking lame.
green jello rocks sometimes
So life is alright but not that great. Lots of things make me happy but Bram and Jack really upset me. I shall possibly stay away from them. I should just stick to my Morgan like I had wanted to in the first place. ...sigh... I really fucking suck sometimes. I can get over it. They will get over it. I just hope I haven't messed anything up. So this is starting to sound really whiney which is fucking lame.
green jello rocks sometimes