up and downs.
09.06.09 UP AND DOWNS
up and downs.
caring is creepy.
i'm a fucking asshole. egoistic and braindead. i'm not better than anyone.
there's nothing left but shame.
i'm so fucking weak.....
i cried when i got into his car but he made me feel so much better again. thought about friendship and realized what i have with him. he's a good friend. maybe the only one who's left in this world.
that's my own fault.
however..
i should just move on.. forget and forgive myself and everyone elce.
i know i can do better than that....
i wish he was a bigger part in my life. but he's never here. i just miss him... all the time. i still hope that someday we will be able to enjoy this relationship. someday all these problems will be past. i want to be there for you. i want to care, really care. i want to smell your skin and feel your arms around me. but most of all i want you to know that i care more than i ever did.
i need you.
up and downs.
caring is creepy.
i'm a fucking asshole. egoistic and braindead. i'm not better than anyone.
there's nothing left but shame.
i'm so fucking weak.....
i cried when i got into his car but he made me feel so much better again. thought about friendship and realized what i have with him. he's a good friend. maybe the only one who's left in this world.
that's my own fault.
however..
i should just move on.. forget and forgive myself and everyone elce.
i know i can do better than that....
i wish he was a bigger part in my life. but he's never here. i just miss him... all the time. i still hope that someday we will be able to enjoy this relationship. someday all these problems will be past. i want to be there for you. i want to care, really care. i want to smell your skin and feel your arms around me. but most of all i want you to know that i care more than i ever did.
i need you.