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i feel like this journal is filled with too much sadness,
i seem to only come here to spill whenever i feel terrible;
i'm not an unhappy person, honest! i get happy so quickly & easily.. but it is fleeting; i think i use it all up rapidly. i give a little to everyone around me, put a little in my journals and photos, and before i know it.. it's gone and i feel like i'm left without anything but emptiness. wouldn't it be wonderful if there was a well of happiness?
right now i've never felt more lonely in my life and this feeling is devouring all my passion. for everything.
i want to run away and start a new life! that way i could sit in an empty apartment and not feel so badly about it because i wouldn't expect anyone to be there. right now, my hopes are high, frightfully high, but there's just. nothing. anyone could be there for me right now, anyone... because they are supposed to care, right? they're supposed to care like how i care. i'm not dependent. my hopes are just high and i want to be a little dependent. please? let me.
"Sometimes I don't think people realize how lonely it is to be a kid."
cocoma: but you can always tell me stuff
cocoma: know that
me: :]
me: since when?
cocoma: since
cocoma: uhh
cocoma: forever
but then again.. maybe you find peace, happiness, and care in the most unexpected places..
shahriyar: I would have thought you'd have cried a hundred times in edmund's arms though, never doing so at all is very surprising
shahriyar: you deserve happiness
me: i wouldn't' say that
shahriyar: I would. I do.
xCaptainx24: I do