insulation
Well. From my last entry, things radically changed. For the worse, er, for the drastic.
Nothing like catching a recently broken up ex-boyfriend in bed with another girl, is there?
The one boy I actually do right by, is the least deserving of it. I guess I had this coming to me. I just hope karma is some how balanced out now.
I'm still really fragile and vulnerable, but I'm still myself. I've turned my frustration into exercise. I haven't been trying to distract myself from dealing with or facing things, which is a BIG step for me, and will allow me to heal faster and truly build a foundation for the better person I am, but have not always been.
Someone I hurt once told me I would never change. And I'm absolved. I have.
As positive as I push myself to appear, and feel, I'm just really sad, and even sadder at the thought that it will take a long time to stop being sad.
The walls that came crashing down are being built back up again, heaven help the next person who wants to get close me, haha.
I should have started writing again earlier, but I felt like a ton of bricks for a good month.
Nothing like catching a recently broken up ex-boyfriend in bed with another girl, is there?
The one boy I actually do right by, is the least deserving of it. I guess I had this coming to me. I just hope karma is some how balanced out now.
I'm still really fragile and vulnerable, but I'm still myself. I've turned my frustration into exercise. I haven't been trying to distract myself from dealing with or facing things, which is a BIG step for me, and will allow me to heal faster and truly build a foundation for the better person I am, but have not always been.
Someone I hurt once told me I would never change. And I'm absolved. I have.
As positive as I push myself to appear, and feel, I'm just really sad, and even sadder at the thought that it will take a long time to stop being sad.
The walls that came crashing down are being built back up again, heaven help the next person who wants to get close me, haha.
I should have started writing again earlier, but I felt like a ton of bricks for a good month.