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what's been going on
number one: im a bitch. I've been stressing out a lot. my moods are to hard to keep up with. they are so much worse when im on my period,its like everytime it comes the world is crashing down, and getting back on the pill for like the millionth time is not helping. my horomones are pretty much going crazy. all the time. ya might not think that that is even a factor, but trust me it is. they even tell you that when you get them in case your horomones get to out of control and you need to switch BC. but I think im getting settled with them, its not as bad as before. and im usually way emotional when im on my period but I try to believe that's normal. heh. even though I turn into a huge bitch. and im starting to think I shouldn't drink when im on it cause that just makes it worse. yeah
school starts back monday, and I guess its time to get ready for that. im going to try this time. I think what'll make it easier is that I don't have to go everyday. cause that was my problem during summer semester. but the truth is I just suck at school. I still don't know what I want to do and its kinda unerving. in the end I may just try to become a nurse. a lot of my family has become nurses. and they can make pretty decent money. and that's what im going to need to even have a chance to make it in this life, its kinda sad really. who knows. im always undecided.
a lot of stuff has been stressing me out lately. I don't know why. all I wanna do is sleep. its so much easier. I fail at everything. at going to school, finding a job, my relationship, friendship, to me its pretty much everything I do. and sometimes it builds up. I guess I don't know how to "deal with it" the right way. cause I just get upset, or angry. and take it out on the wrong people. or just cry and make a fool of myself for being a big baby. my mom is getting these letters from companies that "help you save your home from foreclosure". and even though she doesn't talk about it, I know she's worried about that. and isn't going to talk to me about it cause she knows ill worry too. but I already am. im the one that gets her mail so how am I not supposed to know? oh and I found out that I can never go back and work at the world market because of my attendance points, some company policy bullshit. :(
meh
number one: im a bitch. I've been stressing out a lot. my moods are to hard to keep up with. they are so much worse when im on my period,its like everytime it comes the world is crashing down, and getting back on the pill for like the millionth time is not helping. my horomones are pretty much going crazy. all the time. ya might not think that that is even a factor, but trust me it is. they even tell you that when you get them in case your horomones get to out of control and you need to switch BC. but I think im getting settled with them, its not as bad as before. and im usually way emotional when im on my period but I try to believe that's normal. heh. even though I turn into a huge bitch. and im starting to think I shouldn't drink when im on it cause that just makes it worse. yeah
school starts back monday, and I guess its time to get ready for that. im going to try this time. I think what'll make it easier is that I don't have to go everyday. cause that was my problem during summer semester. but the truth is I just suck at school. I still don't know what I want to do and its kinda unerving. in the end I may just try to become a nurse. a lot of my family has become nurses. and they can make pretty decent money. and that's what im going to need to even have a chance to make it in this life, its kinda sad really. who knows. im always undecided.
a lot of stuff has been stressing me out lately. I don't know why. all I wanna do is sleep. its so much easier. I fail at everything. at going to school, finding a job, my relationship, friendship, to me its pretty much everything I do. and sometimes it builds up. I guess I don't know how to "deal with it" the right way. cause I just get upset, or angry. and take it out on the wrong people. or just cry and make a fool of myself for being a big baby. my mom is getting these letters from companies that "help you save your home from foreclosure". and even though she doesn't talk about it, I know she's worried about that. and isn't going to talk to me about it cause she knows ill worry too. but I already am. im the one that gets her mail so how am I not supposed to know? oh and I found out that I can never go back and work at the world market because of my attendance points, some company policy bullshit. :(
meh