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"i didn't care about anything. then, one day, i walked out into the street and everything was different. i went up to this woman and next thing i know she's my wife and i have a son and it's beautiful."
it sort of reminds me of a while back when all i wanted was to be walking home, in the silent night, in the snow to realize everything is beautiful. for something beautiful to happen. that's how i describe it. i thought i had hit that point-
i feel withdrawn from the world. like the things i do dont matter and im not actually participating or connected to any of this around me. like i have this bubble, and nothing has actually touched my skin. i guess im just waiting for someone to really touch me. to somehow push their hand through the bubble and really touch mine. skin on skin, without this layer of space inbetween. sort of like a filter. when i am finally touched it will explode into a million colors and suddenly everything will be brighter, and the world in comparision is going to seem like it was so muted before.
i feel so distant, but it's not sad. i dont know if i even miss it.
hopefully tomorrow will be like when i few flakes fall again.
i love you joseph, i love you mommy, i love you poppy.
you tell me you don't love me over a cup of coffee
it sort of reminds me of a while back when all i wanted was to be walking home, in the silent night, in the snow to realize everything is beautiful. for something beautiful to happen. that's how i describe it. i thought i had hit that point-
i feel withdrawn from the world. like the things i do dont matter and im not actually participating or connected to any of this around me. like i have this bubble, and nothing has actually touched my skin. i guess im just waiting for someone to really touch me. to somehow push their hand through the bubble and really touch mine. skin on skin, without this layer of space inbetween. sort of like a filter. when i am finally touched it will explode into a million colors and suddenly everything will be brighter, and the world in comparision is going to seem like it was so muted before.
i feel so distant, but it's not sad. i dont know if i even miss it.
hopefully tomorrow will be like when i few flakes fall again.
i love you joseph, i love you mommy, i love you poppy.
you tell me you don't love me over a cup of coffee