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well this christmas sucked. if it wasn't for Jim i'd prolly be dead. he gives me ciggarettes and smokes me up. thank fuck!well i got my bitchin camera and printer, thats alll i wanted and thats alll i got. i miss ryan but he might come out here. hes kewl with our parents but i just have to ask ivan and maria to bring him when they come. im affriad tho. i feel bad. but i really want to see him so i will. later on this week. well. thats all. im bored. i talked to this pete remonesko boy. hes the deal. hes adorable. we actually havn't had a conversation but we said merry christmas and said he had to go to church. and another thing. last night. curt brought over his friend harry. harry is someone i use to have a thing with. he wanted to "get with me" this summer. and im strangly attracted to him. anyway. he came over and kept looking at me and smiling and he lit my ciggarette and called me a dumbass. hes so cute. sigh. im real horny too. oh man. it would be so awesome if ryan came here. we'd be living together for a weekend at my sisters house, how fucking awesome. we could sleep on the couch together and wake up together and all that fun stuff=). and we could have alot of sex too=) and curt said whenever he goes out he'd take us with to drink and stuff. well. sigh. i havn't been kissed for so long. i miss it so much. i need to be kissed.