suicide doesn't seem like a bad idea right now
this was the best night ever!!!!!! NOT!!!!!
omfg
well first around one ryan and jason came over
dyed his hair
he looks so cute oh god
and then we went on a drive to nicks house in fucking whitewater and we had these weird cigars and and i get sick and puked. oh god it was embarressing.
then ryan went to work and jason came over
oh god he was all over me. eww
then
got ready for the show went to the show with alyson waiting patiently for ryan to get there
when he got there, he didn't even talk to me like the whole night
all he said was "feeling better"
im not even kidding thats all he said
he fucking hung out with cody leah daivd and kenny.
which is bullshit! fucking bullshit!
then he leaves with jason and doens't even tell me
and i had to hear from leah he went with jason to get KATHE
and i called jason to see what the fuck was up he dind't asnwer
cody called me back and said hes at kates house and i ask who he was with and he said ryan jason and kathe!!!!!!!!!!!!!
can you fucking believe that
KNOWING i like ryan ALOT and it would bug me they bring her to kates
but kate didn't even have a party coz she was "tired" but really just fucking stupif coz she never asked ppl for money.
and kathe calls me saying wtf is your problem with me
HELLO THE GUY I FUCKING LOVE LIKES YOU AND IS GHUNA DATE YOU WHEN WE WERE FUCKING MADE FOR EACHOTHER YOU DUMB FUCKING SLUT!
so alyson brought me home and then ryan called."why are you mad what did i do i didn't even know she was coming"
WOULD IT HAD FUCKING KILLED TO HANG OUT WITH ME!!!1 TODAY INSTEAD OF PPL YOU SEE ALL THE FUCKING TIME!!!!! GOD KNOWING I LIKE YOU AND KNOWING YOU BREAK MY FUCKING HEART!!!!
this night was fucking hell
i waited all fucking week to for this!!?!?!
i fucking hate myslef for what i put me thru
i let them do it
and i let it get to me
coz i just want HIM so fucking bad to love me and care about me and hold me when i get in fucking rants liket this
its bullshit
i fucking hate him
and jaosn and cody
FUCK RYAN SOUTHERN
HES A LITTLE BITCH!
OK IM DONE FOR NOW
i realy want to fucking die right now, you have no idea
omfg
well first around one ryan and jason came over
dyed his hair
he looks so cute oh god
and then we went on a drive to nicks house in fucking whitewater and we had these weird cigars and and i get sick and puked. oh god it was embarressing.
then ryan went to work and jason came over
oh god he was all over me. eww
then
got ready for the show went to the show with alyson waiting patiently for ryan to get there
when he got there, he didn't even talk to me like the whole night
all he said was "feeling better"
im not even kidding thats all he said
he fucking hung out with cody leah daivd and kenny.
which is bullshit! fucking bullshit!
then he leaves with jason and doens't even tell me
and i had to hear from leah he went with jason to get KATHE
and i called jason to see what the fuck was up he dind't asnwer
cody called me back and said hes at kates house and i ask who he was with and he said ryan jason and kathe!!!!!!!!!!!!!
can you fucking believe that
KNOWING i like ryan ALOT and it would bug me they bring her to kates
but kate didn't even have a party coz she was "tired" but really just fucking stupif coz she never asked ppl for money.
and kathe calls me saying wtf is your problem with me
HELLO THE GUY I FUCKING LOVE LIKES YOU AND IS GHUNA DATE YOU WHEN WE WERE FUCKING MADE FOR EACHOTHER YOU DUMB FUCKING SLUT!
so alyson brought me home and then ryan called."why are you mad what did i do i didn't even know she was coming"
WOULD IT HAD FUCKING KILLED TO HANG OUT WITH ME!!!1 TODAY INSTEAD OF PPL YOU SEE ALL THE FUCKING TIME!!!!! GOD KNOWING I LIKE YOU AND KNOWING YOU BREAK MY FUCKING HEART!!!!
this night was fucking hell
i waited all fucking week to for this!!?!?!
i fucking hate myslef for what i put me thru
i let them do it
and i let it get to me
coz i just want HIM so fucking bad to love me and care about me and hold me when i get in fucking rants liket this
its bullshit
i fucking hate him
and jaosn and cody
FUCK RYAN SOUTHERN
HES A LITTLE BITCH!
OK IM DONE FOR NOW
i realy want to fucking die right now, you have no idea