wut the hell have i done?
i went to sleep last nite wondering how i feel. i've tryed to write something but 4 times yet it all came out wrong. nothing could exsplane the tremence sarow i felt last nite. when i had returned home me and audrey chose to "talk" but this "talk" turned sour not so long into the conversation. its not fair, its not fuckin fair. luv shouldent b this hard. she live's so far away. shes always been here for me, yet not. so is this the end? we had asked. i dono it dident feel rite. i hardly see her. but the times we shared had been the best. the conversation ended with "so i guess this is goodbye?"
im man enough to admite that my eye's have never been so red. u can think me as a lozer or a pan z and that somehow surpressing these feelingz would make me a man. i disagree, it makes u crazy. not to long after she called me bac saying she felt we where making a mistake. for one reason or another i felt as thou i couldent take her bac so quick as it may have effected the realtionship. she called in tears but was greated with nothing of comfort. wuts wrong with me sometimes? i thought about my actions and decided to email her this morning. i fianlly got to speak with her later today. i apologized, i told her i would have gottin down on my hands and kneez if i could. she felt we should take a "break" but i no how those go. taking a break is women for "it is over" at least it had been in the past. after much talking and confussion she felt she needed to talk to me over the phone. so we did. she said she couldent sleep last nite, i dident get to much myself. she stated that she thought a break is wut we needed, but it wasent wut she wanted. she took this fool bac again. a short breakup of 9 hours. i just wish thingz could go bac to normall. its so hard sometimes. its good to no shes waiting, cuz i have been dead for so long.
im man enough to admite that my eye's have never been so red. u can think me as a lozer or a pan z and that somehow surpressing these feelingz would make me a man. i disagree, it makes u crazy. not to long after she called me bac saying she felt we where making a mistake. for one reason or another i felt as thou i couldent take her bac so quick as it may have effected the realtionship. she called in tears but was greated with nothing of comfort. wuts wrong with me sometimes? i thought about my actions and decided to email her this morning. i fianlly got to speak with her later today. i apologized, i told her i would have gottin down on my hands and kneez if i could. she felt we should take a "break" but i no how those go. taking a break is women for "it is over" at least it had been in the past. after much talking and confussion she felt she needed to talk to me over the phone. so we did. she said she couldent sleep last nite, i dident get to much myself. she stated that she thought a break is wut we needed, but it wasent wut she wanted. she took this fool bac again. a short breakup of 9 hours. i just wish thingz could go bac to normall. its so hard sometimes. its good to no shes waiting, cuz i have been dead for so long.