What am I doing.
So the play that I am housemanaging is called The Woolgatherer.By the way it is completely awesome and very well acted. It is so well acted that I have seen it 8 times and am still in awe at the reality of them living in false circumstances. It has two really good quotes:
1. If you keep dreaming for things that aren't there, you start hating what is there.
2. What am I doing.
Well guys, WHAT AM I DOING!!!!!!!!UGH.I feel lost again.Maybe it is just one of the down times of my bipolarness but then i was able to get out of bed this morning. So maybe not. I just feel that I should be better. I feel that I should be this phenomenal actor that I COULD pass for a 7 foot black man who plays basketball very well. But in reality I cant even pass for an irish girl cause i am "too dark." YES I AM STILL PISSED ABOUT THIS. Other than the fact that I am not happy with my talent level, which could be brought on by watching Mike Santos every night being so god damn believable, I should be done with undergraduate. But I cant even focus on any classes that dont have to do with acting. I cant even decide on definnite hair designs for my shows. Somebody just fucking shoot me. Get it over with and put me out of my misery. Please. I will provide you the gun.
Kevin update: I really like Kevin. But hey he is in colorado and I havent heard from him since he got there. Makes a girl wonder.... You kno a text message wouldnt kill the man.
Seriously dont mind me I am just having one of my fits. I will be fine in a week.
1. If you keep dreaming for things that aren't there, you start hating what is there.
2. What am I doing.
Well guys, WHAT AM I DOING!!!!!!!!UGH.I feel lost again.Maybe it is just one of the down times of my bipolarness but then i was able to get out of bed this morning. So maybe not. I just feel that I should be better. I feel that I should be this phenomenal actor that I COULD pass for a 7 foot black man who plays basketball very well. But in reality I cant even pass for an irish girl cause i am "too dark." YES I AM STILL PISSED ABOUT THIS. Other than the fact that I am not happy with my talent level, which could be brought on by watching Mike Santos every night being so god damn believable, I should be done with undergraduate. But I cant even focus on any classes that dont have to do with acting. I cant even decide on definnite hair designs for my shows. Somebody just fucking shoot me. Get it over with and put me out of my misery. Please. I will provide you the gun.
Kevin update: I really like Kevin. But hey he is in colorado and I havent heard from him since he got there. Makes a girl wonder.... You kno a text message wouldnt kill the man.
Seriously dont mind me I am just having one of my fits. I will be fine in a week.