Kiss me under the mistletoe one more time...
CAUTION: THIS IS A TRUELY MUSHY POST
few more days before christmas and i'm so excited! I pretty much got all my holiday shopping done, i've just got to finish making a few more things and wrap up the rest of them before i make my way home for the holidays (which will be on christmas eve.) I've been working but normally i have to worry about school too, but right now with finals over I really don't know what the hell to do with myself... (thus why the livejournal post) lol.
Nah i just felt like it was time to catch up. I mean things have changed drastically from the last time i posted, and I learned A LOT about myself within this past month. Well first off the things with Jeff went real sour real quick. I'm glad i followed my intuition and not getting too involved yet with him. He got really dramatic and really needy. I just wasn't happy after a while. So as life was moving on and I started talking more and more to Chase, Ashby popped randomly into my life.
At first he came on strong but my parents loved him. I had feelings for him but i looked for every excuse to run the other direction. I spoke to everyone who ever met him... i thought that he was acting way too good to be true... this sweet, independent career driven guy whos head over heels for me.... and not one person thought he would be bad. Well so much for that plan. So I continued talking to him and the more I did and the more I let my walls down I fell as hard for him as he had for me.
He breaks every rule i set for myself and relationships. He breaks every expectation I have. For so long i've dated guys that I known that i could never love for the sheer fact that I knew that if I could never love them i'd be safe.... but there was always something missing and I always ended up unhappy. Ashby turned my world upside down and broke me out of my dreary routine and I feel like I haven't felt since the days I believed there was love at first sight and that romance can happen without being cheesy. And now I believe in so much that I used to laugh at. Love isn't cheesy anymore, Romance isn't just for movies. My heart feels like it hasn't beat truely in years. I couldn't even recall all the romantic things he has done that shocks and amazes me. I think this Christmas I may be falling in love, Something i've been fighting for the past 4 years...
few more days before christmas and i'm so excited! I pretty much got all my holiday shopping done, i've just got to finish making a few more things and wrap up the rest of them before i make my way home for the holidays (which will be on christmas eve.) I've been working but normally i have to worry about school too, but right now with finals over I really don't know what the hell to do with myself... (thus why the livejournal post) lol.
Nah i just felt like it was time to catch up. I mean things have changed drastically from the last time i posted, and I learned A LOT about myself within this past month. Well first off the things with Jeff went real sour real quick. I'm glad i followed my intuition and not getting too involved yet with him. He got really dramatic and really needy. I just wasn't happy after a while. So as life was moving on and I started talking more and more to Chase, Ashby popped randomly into my life.
At first he came on strong but my parents loved him. I had feelings for him but i looked for every excuse to run the other direction. I spoke to everyone who ever met him... i thought that he was acting way too good to be true... this sweet, independent career driven guy whos head over heels for me.... and not one person thought he would be bad. Well so much for that plan. So I continued talking to him and the more I did and the more I let my walls down I fell as hard for him as he had for me.
He breaks every rule i set for myself and relationships. He breaks every expectation I have. For so long i've dated guys that I known that i could never love for the sheer fact that I knew that if I could never love them i'd be safe.... but there was always something missing and I always ended up unhappy. Ashby turned my world upside down and broke me out of my dreary routine and I feel like I haven't felt since the days I believed there was love at first sight and that romance can happen without being cheesy. And now I believe in so much that I used to laugh at. Love isn't cheesy anymore, Romance isn't just for movies. My heart feels like it hasn't beat truely in years. I couldn't even recall all the romantic things he has done that shocks and amazes me. I think this Christmas I may be falling in love, Something i've been fighting for the past 4 years...