just thinking...

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sometimes when im sitting around or trying to sleep..i start thinking about reina, like it doesnt feel like shes actaully gone. I guess its stupid, but it feels like im just waiting for her to come home still. like she's still in the city shopping and shes gonna be home one day. but i gatta face it that shes not. shes not coming back. which is really hard to say. i miss her a lot. i dont understand death? i hate when ppl say it was their time to go..how do they know that. i odnt believe theres a set time for everyone. and i dont think its fair..why do all the good ppl have to die so young? and why does it happen to the good families who dont deserve the pain and suffering of losing a loved one? it just all scares me. i dont know how to explain what im feelin right now. i really wish i could. i hate hanging out with my friends cause i start thinking bout school last year. when iwould walk through the halls and see her. and then this year i cant. they all think i ditch em and i dont wanna hang out with them but i do. i love em all but its just really hard. i dont know if they understand what i mean. they probly do but im just stupid and cant explain it. i guess im trying to hide the fact that im still upset and ive changed a lot since the hole thing. i wish i could tell everyone how i feel but its hard.

i miss you reina and i always will <3

this hole thing just made me relize so much....