so it's not hard to fall, when you float like a cannonball.

[playgroundlight]

I'm just updating because I'm bored and I don't wanna clean the bathroom. hm...today was...monday yet again and I'm getting antsy. I can't wait to get out of school and away from the place where I feel so unimportant and just ugh. I hate the work and I hate the people. Even some of my "friends" aren't that great. I hate the way I feel when I'm at school. & I can't wait to get away from it...to pretty much being alone actually cause I doubt I'm doing stuff with people this summer, although nick and I are planning on stalking people which'll be fun and we're gonna go back to dms during finals week to pay our dues to ms johnson haha. and to see everyone else of course. but the only place where I don't feel the way I feel at school is with my brother and his friends and at rya. because they actually care about things that I have to say and they aren't assholes. at least I have that.

Back in school they never taught us what we needed to know,
like how to deal with despair, or someone breaking your heart.
For twelve years I've held it all together but a night like this is begging to pull me apart.
I played it quiet, left you deep in conversation.
I felt uncool and hung out around the kitchen.
I remember I kept thinking that I know you never would,
and now I know I want to kill you like only a best friend could.

Everyone's caught on to everything you do
Everyone's caught on to.

yup.

and there's something else bugging me..which is the same thing that bugs me all the time.
I hate it I hate it I hate it.