It's hip to be square
Do you remember that? Because I do. I always thought that was on Mister Rogers, but apparently it was on Sesame Street. Anyway, watching that clip on youtube made me strangely emotional. Before I knew it I had this huge smile on my face and tears welling up in my eyes. I could remember weekdays spent watching PBS which no doubt started a lasting obsessing with public broadcasting. As a child if you had asked me what I'd remember most/best about my early years, I don't know what I would have said: graduating kindergarten, winning a poetry contest, making my first friend. I doubt I would have said that a Sesame Street segment about how orange crayons are made would leave a lasting impression in my mind. But it did, there's something so serene and sincere about that crayon factory that always stuck with me, that moved me. God I was a weird kid.
I've been through some stuff lately.
I was sick.
My dad's in Iraq.
My sister had a heart attack.
I feel really out of control. Like my life is just on autopilot, but it's crashing.
This will be