Sep 27, 2004 09:16
I don't know what to do. I am so confused. She calls, I call, but it's not always consistent. I have no confidence when it comes to girls I actually like, I guess it's because of my past experiences. They never really work out. I really want this one to work out though, I am so happy when she is around.
I'm at the point in my life when I need to stop thinking about just "hooking up" and start getting serious about shit. I need this, more than I have ever needed anything in my life. I would give up anything to have her. I hate being like this, I hate having a crush, I hate not knowing what will happen. I could talk to her, but I couldn't take the heartbreak. I'm so tired of riding this rollercoaster, I have to tell her and get it off my chest.....