The time has come...
The time has come for me to write a new journal and get some things out in the open. Life has changed. I have made new friends and I have lost old ones. I am an active member of my fraternity and I am still looking for a serious relationship, although I am scared to commit to someone. I read other people's livejournals and I read about how everyone has basically moved on. The two best friends I had throughout high school are now gone and we never talk. I understand why though. It is not because we are too stubborn to keep in touch; that is too elementary of a problem to have in college. It is the fact that there must have been some problems before we headed out. The speech of "brothers" apparently meant nothing to some and to some it brought closer. I am not complaining that I am "out of the loop" because quite frankly I hated the "loop". Everything was planned and run by the same people. Sometimes I wish I could have done things differently, like take my relationships with certain people more seriously and not wait until college to let them flourish. I like who I am today and I could not have it any other way, I just wished I could have done things differently. Then, maybe, they would have worked out for the better and me and my friends would still be close today.
You know, everyone talks about how keeping in touch is on two people and not just one. I believe that, but it has got to be the biggest bunch of bull I have ever come across. So as I sit here reading people's journals about how no one calls them, I am bewildered. Of course there have been times where I have not made the effort, but I do not stand alone. Clearly, this is a place where people can write down what they feel and have their friends read and leave cute little comments to boost egos. Shit I have come here writing about my problems waiting for someone to write me a nice comment that would help my self esteem, but when the problems are always the same and the attitude is never-changing, livejournal has taken control of your life. Which is why I am writing this entry because I am one of those people who have let it control who I am and how I live my life. And with that said, I end my livejournal career with the best of wishes to everyone and I hope I have inspired you to reevaluate yourselves, as I have.
You know, everyone talks about how keeping in touch is on two people and not just one. I believe that, but it has got to be the biggest bunch of bull I have ever come across. So as I sit here reading people's journals about how no one calls them, I am bewildered. Of course there have been times where I have not made the effort, but I do not stand alone. Clearly, this is a place where people can write down what they feel and have their friends read and leave cute little comments to boost egos. Shit I have come here writing about my problems waiting for someone to write me a nice comment that would help my self esteem, but when the problems are always the same and the attitude is never-changing, livejournal has taken control of your life. Which is why I am writing this entry because I am one of those people who have let it control who I am and how I live my life. And with that said, I end my livejournal career with the best of wishes to everyone and I hope I have inspired you to reevaluate yourselves, as I have.