hurt/used/rejected/angry/resentfull/replaced/alone/sick/vengful/broken/in love all over again.
Tonight has been the hellish start of the rest of my single up-to-a-month-atleast. I think.
That probably made no sence so allow me to start again. I think me and Jake are going to call it quits. It's complicated. I wont call it official until tomorrow, when we're going to talk it over, but hello, long distance relationship. I know alot of ou are glad about that, but I've been eating lucky charms and barelly left my bed. Life has truelly sucked. He's probably cheating on me with Sophie, and I cant honestly blame him. The distance is rough. It's just a little hard to see him go, after he bought me a ring and all. It's all a little surreal.
So now I need a really good break-up song to listen to and I need to get a hold. I need Kate and Leo. I need chocolate. Give me exactlly the rest of my life and I may get lucky enough to get over him. But I probably wont EVER get that lucky. I know we wont be together forever, I'm just not ready yet.
If thats not happy enough, dad's going back into surgery. Scar tissue prob. Oh, and moms got skin cancer. Ashleys grounded. Melanie hasnt called me back in what, 2 days? I woulda told her all of this first, but she wont pick up her god damned phone.
Give me one good reason not to throw myself infront of a moving delivery boy. I dare you.