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So I'm feeling siced on life right now.
I was really bummin' about the holidays and how weird its going to be to wake up and go about Christmas like its any other day. Everrrything was sorta getting me down.
Last night at the bonfire I almost had an asthma attack. I went and sat down and did my inhaler. I laid on the ground shaking and wheezing for a while until I caught my breath. While I'm sitting there away from everyone because I don't want them to see me shaking or hear my lungs making weird noises, I got to thinking. I hate how being sick means I loose my social life, I get behind in school, I get in administrative trouble, I never want to step foot in a hospital or doctor's office again, I couldn't get any teacher to write me a goddamn recommendation yet I all I take is GT and AP shit and get A's in it. Bull shit.
Tired of feeling crappy. So I'm going to get presents for people this week. I'm getting used to "living without breathing" so I've just got to be mindful of what I can and cannot physically do. This break will be a nice chance to sit back and take deep breaths, so to speak.
2007, double oh seven. I'm doing this independent research project on the pedagogy of theatre and comparative acting techniques. I'm getting soooo into it! I know that there is nothing else I would rather do as a career. I'm going to Towson in the fall and I'm really excited. I've gotten to know the acting professors there, and they're so sweet. After next year, I'm going reevaluate my health and see if I'm ready to move to California. Financially, I can't just go to school there and live here, so I'll have to move for good.
Like I said.....siced on life!
Have lovely holidays...
I was really bummin' about the holidays and how weird its going to be to wake up and go about Christmas like its any other day. Everrrything was sorta getting me down.
Last night at the bonfire I almost had an asthma attack. I went and sat down and did my inhaler. I laid on the ground shaking and wheezing for a while until I caught my breath. While I'm sitting there away from everyone because I don't want them to see me shaking or hear my lungs making weird noises, I got to thinking. I hate how being sick means I loose my social life, I get behind in school, I get in administrative trouble, I never want to step foot in a hospital or doctor's office again, I couldn't get any teacher to write me a goddamn recommendation yet I all I take is GT and AP shit and get A's in it. Bull shit.
Tired of feeling crappy. So I'm going to get presents for people this week. I'm getting used to "living without breathing" so I've just got to be mindful of what I can and cannot physically do. This break will be a nice chance to sit back and take deep breaths, so to speak.
2007, double oh seven. I'm doing this independent research project on the pedagogy of theatre and comparative acting techniques. I'm getting soooo into it! I know that there is nothing else I would rather do as a career. I'm going to Towson in the fall and I'm really excited. I've gotten to know the acting professors there, and they're so sweet. After next year, I'm going reevaluate my health and see if I'm ready to move to California. Financially, I can't just go to school there and live here, so I'll have to move for good.
Like I said.....siced on life!
Have lovely holidays...