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My first real relationship, and I know I shouldn't say this on the 1st one, but I'm pretty sure its going in the hall of fame for the hardest, toughest, most hurtful, etc.
Everything about him is everything I never picked in previous bachelor options.
Everything I'm doing is nothing I thought I would.
But now its too late, I'm head over heels in love with this boy, and with all those emotions, now I'm wondering if he's right for me. Is good out weighing bad? Is he serious and funny enough? Is he mature enough? Is he responsible enough?
I feel like a mother more than a girlfriend sometimes. That's so dumb, I hate that feeling, but I just have OUR best interests for our future as a couple in mind. And he fights every inch of that by doing exactly opposite of what he knows I'd want or thing.
Gaaah. Now, I know why I was single for 20 years and 2 months. This shit is rediculous. Hard. Draining. Stressful. But fun. Exciting. And an experience.
I'm so in love.
Translate: I'm so mixed up.
Everything about him is everything I never picked in previous bachelor options.
Everything I'm doing is nothing I thought I would.
But now its too late, I'm head over heels in love with this boy, and with all those emotions, now I'm wondering if he's right for me. Is good out weighing bad? Is he serious and funny enough? Is he mature enough? Is he responsible enough?
I feel like a mother more than a girlfriend sometimes. That's so dumb, I hate that feeling, but I just have OUR best interests for our future as a couple in mind. And he fights every inch of that by doing exactly opposite of what he knows I'd want or thing.
Gaaah. Now, I know why I was single for 20 years and 2 months. This shit is rediculous. Hard. Draining. Stressful. But fun. Exciting. And an experience.
I'm so in love.
Translate: I'm so mixed up.