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So take into account that I'm exhausted, have been watching waaaaay too much Doctor Who, and have been listening to waaaay too much Incubus (is there sucha THING as too much Incubus?), b/c I'm in the mood to ramble.
My brother has been gone for a week now and usually this would seem a good thing, but as of lately we've been getting along unusually well. I find that he's an ally for me in the craziness that is my home. Plus, the kid is hilarious.
I basically miss him. My house is miserable. Maybe that's not the best way to say it....my house, well I love my house, but it's like an ice castle. Beautiful to look at but there's absolutely no warmth to it. When I'm not working I pretty much sit there all day alone. It's very lonely.
Speaking of lonely, I've realized that I could probably go several weeks to a month without ever being hugged or touched. No human contact. It kinda sucks. I miss hugs.
And my mom is just so comforting. "It's only a matter of time so you're just gonna have to deal with it" (in reference to putting down Shadow).
I was gonna go do an open mic yesterday but I totally talked myself out of it. I had the guitar in the back of my car and when 6' rolled around I just let it slip past. Ugh, I don't know what is wrong with me.
Do you ever have that feeling like you just want to know everything right now? I feel like I just want to start breezing through a bunch of books searching for, well I don't know what, but I feel like I just want to pick up, start traveling and reading.
"'Cuz I've lived in the same house/
on the same street for all of my life/
And I'm never gonna be who I'm meant to be/
if I don't get out tonight"
That's from my new song I'm working on.
For the next two weeks I will be hiking it up to GR to visit Court for a day and then to Boyne City. I'm excited that I will finally see sunlight and water. I have grand ambitions as far as vidding and reading go. I ALSO have grand ambitions as far as sleeping goes :)
The condo definitely has some good and bad memories attached to it, but I really feel more at home up there than anywhere else. Who knew I was a small town girl? :)
I get my new laptop soon (and I got a little baby ipod. soooo cute). It's something that is completely my own. I bought it, I will be paying for it. The laptop and my guitar and the only significant things I have had complete ownership of. sweet.
------This song has been haunting me all week------
"Blind" Lifehouse
after all this time
I never thought we'd be here
never thought we'd be here
when my love for you was blind
but I couldn't make you see it
couldn't make you see it
that I loved you more than you'll ever know
a part of me died when I let you go
My brother has been gone for a week now and usually this would seem a good thing, but as of lately we've been getting along unusually well. I find that he's an ally for me in the craziness that is my home. Plus, the kid is hilarious.
I basically miss him. My house is miserable. Maybe that's not the best way to say it....my house, well I love my house, but it's like an ice castle. Beautiful to look at but there's absolutely no warmth to it. When I'm not working I pretty much sit there all day alone. It's very lonely.
Speaking of lonely, I've realized that I could probably go several weeks to a month without ever being hugged or touched. No human contact. It kinda sucks. I miss hugs.
And my mom is just so comforting. "It's only a matter of time so you're just gonna have to deal with it" (in reference to putting down Shadow).
I was gonna go do an open mic yesterday but I totally talked myself out of it. I had the guitar in the back of my car and when 6' rolled around I just let it slip past. Ugh, I don't know what is wrong with me.
Do you ever have that feeling like you just want to know everything right now? I feel like I just want to start breezing through a bunch of books searching for, well I don't know what, but I feel like I just want to pick up, start traveling and reading.
"'Cuz I've lived in the same house/
on the same street for all of my life/
And I'm never gonna be who I'm meant to be/
if I don't get out tonight"
That's from my new song I'm working on.
For the next two weeks I will be hiking it up to GR to visit Court for a day and then to Boyne City. I'm excited that I will finally see sunlight and water. I have grand ambitions as far as vidding and reading go. I ALSO have grand ambitions as far as sleeping goes :)
The condo definitely has some good and bad memories attached to it, but I really feel more at home up there than anywhere else. Who knew I was a small town girl? :)
I get my new laptop soon (and I got a little baby ipod. soooo cute). It's something that is completely my own. I bought it, I will be paying for it. The laptop and my guitar and the only significant things I have had complete ownership of. sweet.
------This song has been haunting me all week------
"Blind" Lifehouse
after all this time
I never thought we'd be here
never thought we'd be here
when my love for you was blind
but I couldn't make you see it
couldn't make you see it
that I loved you more than you'll ever know
a part of me died when I let you go