maddness/hatred/sadness/boredom
URGFULLNESS!
k, I'm sooo mad and depressed right now! ill try to make this story easy to read by putting it in point form...
- On Monday, I had a meeting with my parents and Ms.Moroz&Ms.Ens after school. It was bad. They said I'm failing, which is NOT good!
- So then after i got home from the meeting, my parents like got all mad at me and forced me to do homeowork till i went brain dead!
- THEN, on tuesday....me and breanne (my sister) went out with Brett, Les, and Steven and we were supposed to be home at 9:00, but we came home at 10:00 (oops) but thats only because everyone else had to be home at 9:30 and we were at Avery and it takes me and Breanne like 15-20 minutes to walk from Avery to our house. When we got home, we were in trouble and yea...
- Then, on wednesday i made plans with Brett and as I'm getting ready to leave my moms like "uhh, where do you think your going? your grounded" and im like "OMFG! you tell me this NOW, no 1 ever told me i was grounded and i cant just DITCH Brett!" then shes all like "I think he'll get the hint that u won't be able to make it" and then we argued until she drove me to the place i was meeting Brett so i could tell him i couldnt go out, it was soooo retarded!
- then today, i thought the whole grounding thing was over cuz i had done all the possible homework i could d, and they never said how long i was grounded for, so again, i made plans to go out with brett around 4:30, but he said he would call back when he was ready to go. So at like...6:30 my dad said that hes going out and he wants me to go visit my grandma! and i didnt wanna go, and so hs like fine, u can stay home but u cant go out! then i got Sooo upset omg, cuz my sis was grounded too, but she got to go out! GRR!
- so then brett calls after my dad leaves, but i had to tell him that i couldnt come out (and i told him the story of how i was grounded blah) and usually, knowing me, i would have left the house, but my grandma was coming with my bro, so i had to stay there...
- But again, at 7:30, Brett phones and asks if im allowed to come out yet....so i inocently ask grandma if i can go to carlys (my whole family LOVES carly, so i can go there n e time i please) so she said yes, then i went to go meet up wit brett and les at the park
- THEN we had to go to sport check and shop wit steven for shoes and once i noticed wut time it was i RAN all the way home, and got there just in time, OMG!
But im just MAD cuz my parents wana hold me back in gr.8 cuz they dont think im doing enough work or w/e. and my mom totally hates me and shes being such a fuckin bitch lately, its pissing me off! I feel like a prisoner...im supposed to be grounded for a week...I can't live like this...I can't blow off my plans with brett, i hate doint that cuz i love him and i love hangin out with him! I've been finding myself crying alot over "stupid" things. My dads calling me a brat cuz i cried wen my mom almost made me ditch brett, cuz i wasnt getting my way. And my mom totally hates me and is pushing me so FUCKING hard to get caught up in my work, she never leaves me alone about it! shes just making it harder! Like, i worked my fuckin ass off today at skool to get all my work done and i even handed in a L.A essay 1 day early, but none of this is good enuf 4 my mom. she has NO repect 4 me at all, and shes always telling me to respect her but i dont want to automatically respect her just cuz shes my mom, if she doesnt have respect for me, then y should i have respect for her? and everyone is telling me that i have an attitude, like i dont wanna sound blonde, but what kinda qualities do u have to be said to have a bad attitude?...i dont get it, but w/e. woa, that was a long entry, but im tired so im gunna go sleep!
Love,
Krystn