layin in bed......
well i was layin in bed last night and i started thinkin.....u know how i think im really sad because im not with John well thats not it at all...i think what hurts the most is i know hes gonna be with sumone else and im never gonna have him again...thats what hurts the most i think, and how i know that sumday he'll be tellin me how hes with this girl and he loves her and all that.... thats what hurts the most. look just thinkin and typin that makes me cry.....idk maybe im wrong wiith bein sad over this when i fucked it up but u know it still hurts wether i fucked it up or he did it still hurts.......even though im not with him now hes made me into the better person i am today and im grateful god put him into my life when he did....i wanna thank you John for helpin me through everything and help makin me into who i am today....