confused

May 18, 2005 17:38

so things are getting weirder now. as i have written, wilko has been trying to be best friends with dani and loz and hardly talk to me anymore. well it turns out dani is sick of wilko being so clingy and now shs being bitchy to her. today wilko was talking to me more cause dani wasnt and its weird. its like im the emergancy friend and she'll wanna talk to me when its convientent for her. i know if things are like they are now and she decides she wants to be good friends again cause she hasnt got dani there anymore i just cant go back. i cant do that. maddy knew how i felt shes so awsome to talk to ME "i dunno what to do, like it hurt alot that she would just compleatly not wanna have hardly anything to do with me so it's hard to just be like how it used to be when its convenient for her" MADDY "yeah, i know EXACTLY what youre talking about too.. the hard thing is though when it starts again you miss the old times and sometimes it tricks you" when dani's there its all about dani and when loz is there its all about loz and when dani and jarrod and wilko are together its all about pick on emma. im so over "its cause u have red hair...." or "shut up emma" any time i say anything. or wilko and dani making me feel like they dont care if im there or not when they are together. this weekend dani hasnt been bad but then again she wasnt with wilko so i dunno whats going on with that. i suppose im gonna have to keep putting up with everything like i have been cause theres no way i can talk to them cause they'll just crack it at me like when i tried talking to wilko about it when they first started leaving me out. weird that was, first she cracked it then she wouldnt tell me how she felt then she said sorry for fucking things up then she said it would stop then she stopped talking to me again.
so much for being able to talk to ur friends.
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