Long week
It has been a week, a very long and exhausting week, since we found out about Lil Vin. Honestly, I don't think I am doing much better. I just feel so numb. I am so scatterbrained. It is hard to think straight. And it is still a little hard to believe... even after the funeral. I kinda like that he wasn't put under ground. He is in a pretty building. Eric went with me. He actually volunteered. He can be sweet sometimes. I got a sticker for the car, a necklace with a picture of Vinny & I, and a shirt yesterday. His mom ordered shirts for the family and I haven't wanted to take it off since the moment I got it. Y'know I liked my spot as the 2nd oldest grandchild. He should be here, tending to his spot in the line. My birthday is coming up in less than 2 weeks and it really sucks to realize that there will be no surprise visit from Lil Vin. I just want him back.