i'm sorry...
i know i haven't been the best friend, role model, father, brother, or son. and for that i send you my most sincere apology. to all of you that i've let down, i'm sorry and i promise it won't happen again. to my parents i'm sorry for always pushing the limits when i knew they didn't need to be pushed, and for always questioning everything you did for me, i now know that you knew what you were talking about and doing. to my sister and other siblings i'm sorry i wasn't and am still not the rolemodel and big brother that i should have been. for a long time i was too worried about my own shit to stop and see how everything i was doing was affecting you guys...and for that i'm truley sorry. and to jorryn- i'm sorry that i don't know what i'm doing at all we are both learning and adapting as we go, and trust me i'm just as scared about this as i have ever been scared at anything in my life.